As Told By Felicia

One thing that brings me comfort is when I catch my two dogs in my daughter's room.  It makes me think that they are spending time with their baby sister, and that maybe they can sense her presence as much as I can.  Whenever I see them in here, I always snap a photo.  I thought this could be a cute ongoing photo journal of the pups hanging out with Izzy in their own way. I'll update it as I take photos.  Hopefully I have many more to come, maybe one day even with an Earthside- sibling to our angel in Heaven.  Cooper, June 25th, 2020 Molly, June 25th, 2020 Cooper, September 2nd, 2020 Cooper, September 2nd, 2020 

And you became a father one evening,  Quietly, without a sound You found your daughter and settled into her  Scooped her up and breathed her in  Your eyes fell closed and I saw your tears  And in that moment, I loved you like no other.  To my husband, on your first bittersweet Father's Day,  I know our daughter is with Jesus in Heaven and not with us here, but you are still the best Daddy I have ever seen. She is so lucky to call you her Daddy. Isabela and I love you so much. I know for a fact that she is in Heaven, bragging that you get to be hers. Today, we celebrate you.  I love you forever and ever,  Your wife 

Our daughter, Isabela Rose, was born and died on May 2nd, 2020. I went into preterm labor at 21 weeks and 5 days after a failed emergency cerclage procedure and developing an infection. I had to deliver my perfect baby girl before her body was ready to enter this world, but she was a fighter. She lived for 1 hour and 45 minutes in our arms, and her Daddy and I loved her the best we could during that time.  I started writing letters to her the day after she was born, to help me process our immense loss and grief.  "I lost my heart to you, little one, forever, for always, it's yours."  -Zoe Clark Coates June 8th, 2020 Isabela,  Mommy got a haircut today. Not important in the grand scheme of things, but pulling up to the salon for my appointment brought me back to a painful, beautiful memory: the first time I ever said "yes" to the age-old question, "do you have any kids?"  I remember it like it was yesterday. The hairstylist and I were discussing our Val...

Today is a double whammy and I am linking up with Anne for Currently and Kristen  for What's New With You. It's the first Currently/ What's New With You link-up I've done in a few months. After losing our daughter in May, getting back into my blog has been a great coping mechanism for me, especially since the majority of my recent posts have been about Isabela. This month's "Currently" prompts are all about what we are feeling, wearing, buying, craving, and discussing .   Currently, I am...  f eeling   grateful for my work family. We received an incredibly generous care package from my coworkers and supervisors the week we lost our baby girl. We received a delivery with an enormous Italian dinner to serve at least 10, the most beautiful floral arrangement, and a thoughtful card with more gift cards than we know what to do with. It was such a help, considering both of us have been home since then. I can never thank them enough for everything they have done...

Our daughter, Isabela Rose, was born and died on May 2nd, 2020. I went into preterm labor at 21 weeks and 5 days after a failed emergency cerclage procedure and developing an infection. I had to deliver my perfect baby girl before her body was ready to enter this world, but she was a fighter. She lived for 1 hour and 45 minutes in our arms, and her Daddy and I loved her the best we could during that time.  I started writing letters to her the day after she was born, to help me process our immense loss and grief.  "I lost my heart to you, little one, forever, for always, it's yours."  -Zoe Clark Coates June 2nd, 2020  My little love,  Today, you would be one month old. We would be in the throes of newborn-hood, with sleepless nights, endless diaper changes, and a happy exhaustion that our baby girl was earthside. Instead, we are here without you, with empty arms, broken hearts, and you, our beautiful angel, in Heaven.  We miss you so much, honey. I know Dadd...