struggling to find peace during the holidays
Hey everyone, happy 2021! I hope everyone had a good holiday, whatever you celebrate. I don't remember the last time I blogged or even logged in, really- probably the end of November, I think. December has been a blur. It was our first Christmas without our daughter Isabela so I've had a lot of my mind. Did I talk about Thanksgiving here yet? I have no idea. I remember feeling so angry around Thanksgiving. What do I have to be grateful for? My child is dead and I have to keep living without her. I'm not at the point in my grief where I can find silver linings, and I'm not sure I will ever reach that point. I'm just trying to make it through. It's safe to say that I white-knuckled it October through January. Anyway, our Thanksgiving was pretty low key. We went to my parents house for lunch and then came home to watch movies. I made some ornaments for Izzy which I think I already shared here on the blog. Because I'm a glutton for punishment, we started the mo