Sometimes, I just need to talk about it | my 2 AM thoughts on infertility
"I'll leave the test on the counter just in case it changes its mind," I joked to my husband. So there it sat until the next morning, when I walked in to the bathroom to a negative staring me back in the face. I threw it away with tears in my eyes because let's face it- I was only half-kidding, and was hoping deep-down it would miraculously change from "not pregnant" to "pregnant" over night. Yeah right, Felicia, it doesn't work like that. I rarely allow myself to test because I don't want to get our hopes up- but for some reason, this month I was particularly hopeful. Maybe it's because I have just lost a significant amount of weight , and everyone has been telling me "my cousin's friend's sister lost 10 pounds and then poof, she was pregnant!" Or maybe its because my new doctor told me that several of her patients "fell pregnant" on the medication she prescribed me. Or maybe because my RE said that ...